Hello

Beautiful scenic morning, nice clouds :)
Too bad in just an hour the sun is raising the temperature of the environment again,
dislike the scorching weather, hope it rains!
Finally I can login to my blog again, hah I only manage to get in like once per week or longer? -.-

The much anticipated hols are here, but I really haven't been doing enough.
There is this high activation energy and a restless and noisy heart, bleh.

Yesterday was quite cool, I got to chat with zi cong who is my school mate whom I met during tracting, we got to discuss about the gospel and he was even thinking of bringing his mum along to church this Sunday, he's still considering. That is why I was not wrong to share during the last youth tracting session that God performs miracles on every tracting session! In fact, in every spiritual work He does, we are just not sensitive to it.
His arms are always beside to lead, above to save, behind to support.

"Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." Matthew 28:18-20

We have the privilege to repeat the biggest miracle our lives, witnessing the salvation of another soul.
The method: evangelise!

Get the big picture, get a move on

28We proclaim him, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so that we may present everyone perfect in Christ.
29To this end I labor, struggling with all his energy, which so powerfully works in me.
Colossians 1:28-29

Hm, I have come to realise that life isn't about the individual skirmishes which we engage in,
what is important is whether all we have done, what we have sacrificed is for the ultimate purpose,
the chief end of our lives.
Again, when I fell to the deepest depths of misery, God spoke to me and completely put me to shame with this one verse.
'To this end' I had been myopic, faithless and not persistent enough to strive to this supposed end, instead I sought an end to a temporial problem (compared to eternity) by escaping.

13 Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead,
14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
Philipians 3:13-14

Stop dwelling in the past and get a move on!

13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

The only determinant of the value of our labour is whether it is of Him, for Him and through Him.

6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

I believe that the lesson on Sunday had an impact on everyone of us, God certainly spoke to each of us in wonderfully amazing ways!
This blog entry marks a chapter of re-direction and a new start to overcome giants, through complete dependence on Him only.

hmm..

If love can be nurtured out of feelings,
wouldn't such a foundation constructed out of our ever fluctuating emotions
be extremely unstable?

There are two sides.

Someone or anyone

Please tell me what is enjoyable about quarreling and
share with me what is the humongous difficulty one can face is trying to shut up.
Thanks.

Utterly miserable

Another chapter of -

I doubt we ever had this,
it has probably been thrown far far away and long long ago.
So far that I can't even catch a glimpse of its shadow, a whiff of its scent,
there's no trace of it.
Exasperated.
I have no idea what's the next step to take.
To run or hide or somehow force my way through?
My anguish is not that I'm giving up cause I'm alone, but because of the very fact that I'm not alone,
yet I have given up, totally.
Ah, this is indescribable .
Its weird to discover how long I took to realize that I had given up totally.

Exhausted, completely.
Sometimes, I can even feel that my heart is reluctant to pump.

gluttony

I'm really thankful for the fact that I have brothers, really appreciate them.

Food eaten today:
sandwich
nasi lemak
spaghetti
pork soup + rice
1 bar of chocolates
dinner (catered)

This is bad I'm seriously becoming a fei lou!
'Fei lou' actually means a fat person for those who aren't aware yet.
Sigh, back injury still not recovered yet...it can be quite a hindrance!
I'm soo tempted to play badminton.

Had an interesting encounter at the library just now, it was all quiet and suddenly I just heard some sound from someone's laptop nearby: "Yang Guooo..."
I was like totally ----__________----"
Econs common test on thurs, scary.
Bad thing is that I am really kinda tired to whack for efficient studying without napping :(

My heart seems to be split. It's kinda overwhelming, hard to handle thing at times ><

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Oh, comp's in a good mood today, guess I shall update.
Had a good sleep last night so I woke up reluctantly at about 10am,
to my surprise the weather was really cool and it just felt so great after experiencing humid weather day after day! Lol, I guess the weather makes me feel grumpy.

Was studying in the library in the morning in the quiet reading room,
sometimes I just do not understand why people can't understand a simple word such as quiet.
There was even a picture of a finger-over-lips, so all the more that doesn't give them an excuse to say that they're illiterate (they're youngsters anyway) The room was so quiet and the their whisperings could be heard even at the extreme ends of the room, where I was, so it was kinda ... moved out anyway.

I thought YF was great today, learned about Nehemiah: Attitude to God's Word, recalling God's work in our lives, making the joy of the Lord our strength etc (too many lessons to remember them all.) Looking forward to Sunday.


We blind ourselves from the simplicity of God's solutions with the complexity of human problems.

current mood: really crapp.

Hate it when people make use of moral arguments and abuse its use, it's disgusting.
Let me get a logical argument and I'll be sure to take it to your face.
Arg I'm just frustrated.

Sigh, more lethargic nowadays.
Seriously need to get into carnage mode to make it else I'll always remain at the 'hanging on' stage.

My com and internet connection is...
cRaNkYY.